Sometimes I feel as if I don't know what anymore.


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Today I decided to let my creative spirit out for a run. It ran and got the deco paints and the new hair clips that my mom just bought and my mom's glasses.

Result?

(after coming back from church just now)
Mom : (after seeing the hair clips)"aiyoooooooooooo"

and then,

Mom : (after seeing her glasses) "aiyooooooooooooo"


Hair clips and glasses were nice, but now my mom looks like a hippie.

XD

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On another note, Wei Shern's back and will be home until Febuary!!! ahahaha!!

I emo

So much for saying I'm not gonna come here until after STPM...



I'm going to stop... singing... anymore.. for a while... I mean it

It always hurts to reopen wounds...

One random picture

Now you know what your kids have been doing in RBS 08'.... ahaha.. jkjk

Note : Uncle Dex in the back, giving his ping-pong war cry or something... ahahaha!!

Note : Wingo's birthday is on Thursday!!!

Note : This will be the last post until after STPM... 25 or so more days. I shall have patience.

Note : Oh gosh, isn't the last note so depressing? I'll post more notes here to tide you all until after my papers.

Note : Sherlyn! Wingo! YS!! And whoevers!!! I can't wait to go JAMMING after STPM!!! WOO HOOOOS!!!!

Note : I can't go for the farewell party... Sobs.

Note : The last note is also very depressing.

Note : I shouldn't be here. I should be studying.

Note : Yar, I should.

Note : Biology on Thursday.

Note : That previous note isn't so depressing. At least I'll get this one paper over with.

Note : I'm going to get some ice-cream now. And study with a tub of ice-cream on my lap. :3

Note : This is a lot of notes.

Note : ktxbai

This post is for the one and only :

Wingo.

ahahahahahahaha!!!!!! ( laughs in the distance)

It's his birthday in 5 days' time. It's also the first paper of STPM in 5 days' time for me and the rest of the Bio students.

So I'm doing it now. Before I get sucked under the current of time into the embrace of the ever-intimidating STPM exam. yay

So here it is : your post

Happy birthday Wingo!!! I hope that you can enjoy your day in spite of(again) the looming shadow of STPM...

ahaha... Eat a lot, play a lot, and then study, k? :3 meow


Here's my wish for you :

"the Lord bless you and keep you
the Lord make his face shine upon you
and be gracious to you;
the Lord turn his face toward you
and give you peace"

Numbers 6:24-26

Says it better than whatever wish I'll write here.

Keep you in prayer always. =)

Neway, I couldn't find that many pictures of you cos' I wanted to do the traditional birthday post, so, um, here's what I excavated found and decided to put here because these pictures won't make you break my legs...ahaha

Our gerkorama gig. I never told you thanks for joining us in spite of your apprehensions, so here it is : thanks. I really appreciate it =)

And finally, the man himself :

Wingo (best friends furevah, 2008 - infiniti ... ahaha!!)

*click =)

Thanks.

*bang!!

I just got electrocuted and burnt my tongue, all in the space of a few seconds.

About the first, I was trying to pull out the fluorescent light plug that's over the computer. Because it's afternoon and there's no point wasting electricity.

So I grabbed the plug and the thing broke off into two pieces in my hand. Like, broke off. Dude, I wasn't even angry or anything. =.="

The other half was still stuck in the power socket, which, of course, is switched on. And stupidly(I was thinking about PKT. Don't blame me, I had 4-plus hours of Biology with Mano and that was the thing I was thinking about all that time - ask XH or Jivi - they were beside me) I tried to pull it out.

Lesson learnt : NEVER grab an exposed plug(where you can see the wires and all inside)

Obviously, I got electrocuted. Me, the girl who NEVER gets electrocuted, got electrocuted. I can switch bathroom switches off and on with dripping wet hands and never get electrocuted while my mom whose hands are only damp, gets a nasty shock.

And so now the light is on now because I don't dare to touch the thing again.

And the second thing, I was eating my lunch( :3) and burnt my tongue. End of story. ahaha




STPM in 5 days.

I feel so sad. Isn't it enough that I've always done as you said? Followed your teachings, lead and all? Why is it that you want to control me so much??

I'm not your slave. I'm not someone you order around as and when you like.

Stop always thinking you're right, stop trying to control the lives of people around you. You're just making lives miserable and making me resent you.

One of the things I've learnt in these couple of years is that being right is not everything. Something that you've not seemed to learn. It's not that difficult a lesson. No wonder there're people who don't like you.

Learn to give in. People don't always have to do what you say, what you ask all the time. I'm not here to serve you, okay.


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I know sometimes, people think I'm cold. And maybe you're justified in thinking so. But let me explain.
Not make excuses. Explain.

I don't think and react the way people do to a certain situation because I think differently. Hence due to that different mindset and way of thinking, I react accordingly.

For example, a very good friend of mine had a problem. But apart from asking and plain finding out about the problem, I didn't do much else. And then people ask why.

To me, in this situation, I know about the problem. But it is totally out of my hands, out of my power to do anything about it at all. Trust me, if there WAS somtething I could do, I would do anything in my power to help that friend. However, there's nothing I could do about the situation except be there for my friend. And that I could only do if that friend decided to come to me.

So what I did was try to comfort all I could, then make sure that the person knew that I was there if that person needed me.

And you ask why I'm so cold. Yeah, I tend to take the realistic and pragmatic view of things sometimes... and it seems like I don't care.

I do. Don't freaking shake your heads and say yeah right and all that, because you don't know me that well. I don't usually show people what I really feel most of the time because I feel like that's exposing too much of myself. Open for fire.
That brings me to the next thing.

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It baffles me sometimes why so many people whine constantly about being all alone and having no one to talk to. There ARE people out there who care.

It's just a matter of trusting them enough to share things with them.

And me? One of the reasons why people say I'm so cold, I think is because I don't share anything of myself with people around me. I just listen
But don't say anything about myself. I find it a sign of weakness.

So after all this, I want to apologise if I've ever discouraged anyone or turned anyone off because of my coldness.. Sorry.

I just saw on facebook that its YEOW Sheng's birthday... Tomorrow?

Wow. Kk. Erm, I can`t do much here cos I don't have any pictures available and we`ve MUET tomorrow... How sad..

But anyway, happy birthday ys! If what I saw on Fbk was right and this tiny screen is not screwing with me. Lol

Kk. That`s all for now..

Later-